Just another day of my life... Amazingly a thought strikes my mind " Why am i not writing now?" This question made me get up from my bed and walk towards my laptop. In search for the answer i went through my old post and thought; has anything changed, knowing that no one reads or rather my self satisfaction is completely put me down, that i have stopped writing? Last night i watched a Bollywood Flick called " Turning 30 " A simple and some were related to what happens in our day to day life.

We the Woman Gender at some point get weak with our emotions or with society and community boundaries. When we move ahead of others we always find someone stopping us with all the various reasons in the world. at the same time when we are a little behind we are again being questioned for various reasons. Strange, but true when we go through the worst phase of our life and want someone to understand us.. the next seat is always empty. Most of our relations are not working because we expect so much and when there is nothing in return, we put ourself down and finish a good relation. Then starts the blame game..between the same two people who were so much in love and wanted to take each others good and bad deeds.

Why is that?
Why do we need or belive that there should be someone to always understand us?
Why do we look at the next seat of ours and feel bad about it being empty?

I have lived all my life by believing that friends are the most important key part of our life's. Best of friends do have misunderstandings, fights, sometimes they even dont want to see each others face. But can they forget the best of times they spent together? After a huge fight i did stop talking to my friend but as days went by this part brought a emptiness in me, Someone i called a friend is no more there in my life. Sad !! We even spoke to each other after 5 yrs of silence .. wanted to tell her so much ...but i just couldn't. I guess i move forward in life and even she did ... but now even knowing so many people and sharing a good relation's the next seat for my friend is still empty. The Picture Frame is Still empty. This Ends with a broad smile on my face as life needs to carry on and everyone needs to play their roles.

Whom should i think will understand this? Family Nahhh.. Someone close to my heart  Nahh... People i know whom i call friends Nahhh.... No one can actually , People will laugh at me saying what a fool ur? It Sounds Funny sometimes that someone like me can feel all these emotions. But i do! Sometimes emotions are better understood and shared by ourself's, I have everything what i require in life; Luxury, Money, Family, Few people whom i call Friends, Good Carrier, hence according to others i have nothing to be sad or feel empty about. Right !! It sounds so much like Amitab's Dialogue na -  Mere pass MAA hai ... He He ...

Life and Emotions needs to carry on together. How much ever we try somethings cant be forgotten and sometimes are better unsaid or hidden in the corner of your heart.

This is something for you Priya after spending 15 yrs of friendship with you i never really met anyone with whom i can share the same time or a BOND that was so strong called Friends. Miss you .. Hope the Lord blesses you with loads of Love, Companion ship , Success & Smiles. I am SORRY about all the misunderstandings and fights that popped up between us. Good or Bad Friends are always there for each other. I am sorry as i wasn't around.


Love,
Nitz