Something that i felt today is a mix of emotions, i didnt get a perfect word for it but thought i should try and write it out. Everytime i go through this i start feeling that may be i do give the F to the world and thats why i have to go through this..


       There have been times in the past were i knew i was a fool who never relaized what an outer world is? Were people disguise themselves in such i way that i could have imagined them to be. World around me was so different when i stepped out of my house, here i still cant see who is what and why? Words like Friends, Trust, Support etc doesnt exsist. Why is that? I can understand if one in the odds is like that but, everyone till date have been with that mentality that i have known. Its SAD that now we can never trust the person sitting besides us or even those who come out saying that they are your friends.
   
       Competition to beat others, Money, etc.. thinking what could be the reason? Or just to put down someone and make them feel BAD. I have no idea and i guess that is why i am looking for the answers. Nobody is born intelligent, except few who have made a mark in this world and few are still making..but did also do the same thing ..or did they go through the same emotions once in their life. Its Strange is it not as how people use others for their good and then dont turn back to realize what they have done??


       These things are in my mind once i started working in corporates. Realized it that it happens more often and in day to day life. Hubby did tell me to F the world and to carry on with life, but i know thats were the problem lies i can give F to the world but i wouldn't be able to do with someone in my life. I have never been jealous or FKED anyones happiness. I have tried to work hard and get something out of it, and trust me everytime i come empty handed coz someone else stamped on me and went ahead. They need to realize that if they point one finger the rest of the 4 are towards them HUH !!! My work life has never been exciting or encouraging but i have to go on and on to keep the routine.


Will Continue this Soon .. :-)


Love,
Nita