Life & Love -- Alot to Learn from!!

Strangely unlike my other colleagues i go through Monday Blues pretty much in the opposite direction. Yes, I do wait for the time to tick at 2 PM fast, Wait for someone to gossip something new. then what is the difference.. hmm the big difference is colleagues get Monday Blues because off too much workload after a great relaxing weekend and for me no work even after a great weekend of complete rest and outing. Ha ha ha
After all the coffee breaks, recharge room rounds yet i am left with 4 hours to go....
And a thought within me pops up how lucky i am and these words were out aloud in my mind running thru towards my heart...

Some words aren't enough to pen down a emotion,
hours aren't enough to spend a life time,
happiness is what we all search for,
but sometimes searching a reason is also not enough.
For all i know i have been blessed,
sometimes that blessing also isn't enough,

The only Monday blues I have is with the fight between my heart and mind as always.. 

Hope you have a great day ahead...
Do Enjoy the latest Bollywood track from the upcoming movie " Agneepath "




Love,
Nitz

A thought that has been crawling inside me.. living every moment of life we make new relations, start to walk on new pathways.. new goals... new adventures. But have we realized with time the the charm and enthuse that we start with it begins to fade away & relationships here are no exceptions.

 Relations can be summarized in various categories starting from genuine to intimate. Usually if its a Intimate relationships,  Few cuddles with suprizes, etc can keep it going. but what about the relationship that is genuine for e.g between ur family? I belong a typical Rajasthani family where respect & prayer's is the first thing that is taught to the child. Me being the eldest i always longed for a bro who would be my best friend and person to take care of me. Strange that i feel longed for such a relationship were the world longs for intimate and other relations.

This is what made me think what an emotional fool i am, past few days i have felt a pinch inside me which i need to bring it out or it would eat me from inside, thinking how people change their priorities when they add new relations to their life. Here what it is that is running in me - I met someone while working for an MNC as days passed by... we started taking each other as close as a brother and sister would. Whatever we did or went through we would actually sit and talk on that ... laugh on things, it was like this all i wanted a sweet bro whom i thought would be my best friend and yet take care of me like a big B

Years passed and finally day came where he fell in love and started a new journey in his life. As always i wanted to see him settled and happy with this life.. but now as days passed we no more talk or even now sit and laugh on jokes that we used to crack before. Something i didnt expect it to happen, I am married too but i dont think i have ever done this to something who counted on me or even been close to me. Why do people change so soon and forget that they have other relations also which might be affecting.

Or is it that i am being stupid enough to think that i counted to a person who is just another colleague working at my office? I kept talking about this to my hubby and he said no more emotional relationships you are gonna have. I guess he is right - " NO MORE " Don't deserve to be hurt like this at least. I might even be over reacting but the difference i see now is way too much than i thought it would happen. Actually i think i am HURT of loosing someone so close to me.

Tear rolls down telling me stop thinking about it. Everyone has their own life and we are no special to them . the ugly reality.

Nitz

Sometimes words are enough to say it all
 Sometimes space in heart isnt enough to love it more
Although there is no limit or boundaries set
 tears are not enough to stop you from leaving

Life goes on pretty much the same
 people come and go,leaving a mark behind
Somtimes memories arent enough to fill the empty space
 Even Love isnt enough for insecurities to go..

Love,

Nitz

Does this bring a smile on your face???  It makes me wonder what it is to do with the word shopping and women.. It sure brings a bigg Smile on my face, every time i know that i am off  for shopping it makes me more active and chilled out. The excitement builds up more when women see the word " SALE " or " 50 % OFF "  Sometimes i have felt that this helps me like a therapy, which can help me calm and also get back in motion. 

After a hectic week for work, we get energized by walk taken on the roads looking for new stuff which is called window shopping. Ahhh.. i forget all the pains.. professional frustrations and fights. In Opp. Men hate to shop all i have seen is they got to a shop see one thing and just buy it they never compare with other places or look for something new. What a boring way to shop... LOL.. yeah yeah i know most of the men will have so many things to say on this part. Though this is the fact, For women shopping spree comes in all ages it doesn't only start when we are in teens or after getting married. 
  
      While we are young girls we love shopping with friends and checking out new girly stuff to impress everyone around us. New designs, Shoes, Stylish colourss.. it was a craze those times. Felt like a free bird .. to do anything and wear anything i wished not thinking if that was casuals or formals. 


For shopping Age Is No Bar, I am sure even in my 50's i would love to shop and spend a quality time looking at things for my own space. Yeah the only thing changes from a teen to married women shopping is that now she has more to shop for... he he he shop for the room, shop to keep the home more and more trendy going with the new designs. Shop for kids or sometimes for husband also.. then when we get time we shop for our-self... :P

Shopping has been the best therapy for many of us. when we have a fight usually he takes me out for shopping n then continued with dinner.. never understood why.. but when i sat and thought about it.. i saw that when i was upset or angry and am out for shopping i tend to normally come back to calm state and enjoy every moment of it. Forgetting the topic of the fight or things we were discussing etc..hence this makes me feel -  Women's are shopaholic and no matter what and there is a strong feeling that 90% of women will agree with me.


I enjoyed writing about something i love to do... Do you feel the same??

Do write to me.


Much Love 

Sitting on my desk on a usual Tuesday afternoon, after a long break from work and with a relaxed mind. Just a thought of my old friend crossed my mind while checking my emails and something unknown brought a smile on my face. Felt so good and nice, for a change.

I have never been a good in handling real time situations, a true fact of me .. always try running away from them or hide away. They have always been the negative aspect in my life, now that i have less number of people known to me i have tried to tackle and make sure i carry on my relationship with them with a pure heart and guts to face out anything that comes in between. May be thats y i have less number of people liking me coz i have never learnt to say NO or sometimes even tell them how i feel. Friends have always misunderstood me as for my this behavior. Strangely i always thought they were my friends... closed of all.
How tricky relationships can be nah?? you never get what you expect off.

That's why when i was thinking of a pal whom i met over the blog and been a yr now... knowing each other may be not completely but yet a strange connection.. seems like a something is always left out to know..

A smile comes from nowhere is always comforting. isn't it ?? Sometime also helps you relax after a stressful day or sobby feeling... Smile it can do wonders to a person.

Days Pass by and sometimes you never realize how fast time flies away.. Suddenly one fine day when you look back you realize; What might have passed by you and you never noticed. Missed few hints, people who wanted to be there with you , chances that you might have never notices, touches that you never felt, Kiss which said it all but you never heard anything... Funny yet a feeling within asking how did i miss it? Why didnt i never understand it?

Life is too short for us to even notice such small things until and unless it is said to us. We always get on the path of finding things that our heart or body desires , Leaving behind the unsaid and moments that would matter the most. Funny, Yet true we all do this.. knowing or unknowingly some point of our life.

Life seems like a mystery box sometimes filled with something we never expected and sometimes it just turns the way we want it to be.  Till date what i have seen, it unfolds all the mysteries and keeps the pieces in front of you to join them and see what is life expecting from you... rather what you expect from it... Love every moment of it which will make you feel alive and keep you going ... I have heard this from so many of them but when experienced it .. it truly makes you feel alive. Realized that on the path of achieving something dont loose the small gestures.. a moment of making someone smile just because of you...

after all that i have gone through , the ups and downs , the highs n lows in life, the betrayal and wonderful friends, smiles that i shared and tears that came out running in front of the mirror... It has taught me how to keep it going, Strong and believing that everything will be the way it has to be.  And today when i look back i just wanna THANK life for holding on to me yet.

Money , Name , Fame does it take away the charm of your relations?

We can always have an debate over this and everyone would have their point of view and yeah sometimes it may seem right as well... I asked myself what is more important - Money - that gives us a luxury filled life continues with Name in the society and Fame as well... I didnt have an answer .. in search for it i am putting down my thoughts ...

Myself earning good enough that i can run my life, Life that is filled with liveliness, someone right next to me and guiding me at every curve of life, Family who i know will be there i need them to. Still i am running with thousand things in my mind to have something of my own, Its nothing wrong but somewhere i have an urge to become something on my own. I have seen many of them who always urged to become and make a mark but they forget sometimes that in that process you are slowly loosing of what you have which is so beautiful, Most of them i have known have always been hyper, Tensed and in return everything blows towards the family and ultimately they go far away .... Some carry their life and carrier in 2 different routes which makes them give time and respect to all their loved ones... This is what we wanted? what is the purpose of making a mark when our surroundings are not happy, Does Name and fame get us all the precious time that we lost?

Then we think thrice;  is that all worth ... The answer is still un-known to me ... reason for that is .. there are many relations that only needs money and luxury to be their support, Now we hardly find people who genuinely want to make up a living happily in what they have, I might be wrong .. and i wish i am.. but this is what life has shown me .... an bitter example... How many of us think that outer appearance is not that important in a relation and all that matters is heart and emotions.... people who read my articles .. told me that what i wished for is all a fairy tale... yes i agree to it.. coz now this generX needs to look good and feel good factor...

Hence we sometimes we live an materialistic life...do you agree? Becoming Someone with all the Fame and Name might even lead by loosing alot of people but we still do.... One Life... and so many things to do in this short span... One one wants to be behind others. Is that right ...?

Any experiences you wanna share? Please do...

Love,
Nitz

Just another day of my life... Amazingly a thought strikes my mind " Why am i not writing now?" This question made me get up from my bed and walk towards my laptop. In search for the answer i went through my old post and thought; has anything changed, knowing that no one reads or rather my self satisfaction is completely put me down, that i have stopped writing? Last night i watched a Bollywood Flick called " Turning 30 " A simple and some were related to what happens in our day to day life.

We the Woman Gender at some point get weak with our emotions or with society and community boundaries. When we move ahead of others we always find someone stopping us with all the various reasons in the world. at the same time when we are a little behind we are again being questioned for various reasons. Strange, but true when we go through the worst phase of our life and want someone to understand us.. the next seat is always empty. Most of our relations are not working because we expect so much and when there is nothing in return, we put ourself down and finish a good relation. Then starts the blame game..between the same two people who were so much in love and wanted to take each others good and bad deeds.

Why is that?
Why do we need or belive that there should be someone to always understand us?
Why do we look at the next seat of ours and feel bad about it being empty?

I have lived all my life by believing that friends are the most important key part of our life's. Best of friends do have misunderstandings, fights, sometimes they even dont want to see each others face. But can they forget the best of times they spent together? After a huge fight i did stop talking to my friend but as days went by this part brought a emptiness in me, Someone i called a friend is no more there in my life. Sad !! We even spoke to each other after 5 yrs of silence .. wanted to tell her so much ...but i just couldn't. I guess i move forward in life and even she did ... but now even knowing so many people and sharing a good relation's the next seat for my friend is still empty. The Picture Frame is Still empty. This Ends with a broad smile on my face as life needs to carry on and everyone needs to play their roles.

Whom should i think will understand this? Family Nahhh.. Someone close to my heart  Nahh... People i know whom i call friends Nahhh.... No one can actually , People will laugh at me saying what a fool ur? It Sounds Funny sometimes that someone like me can feel all these emotions. But i do! Sometimes emotions are better understood and shared by ourself's, I have everything what i require in life; Luxury, Money, Family, Few people whom i call Friends, Good Carrier, hence according to others i have nothing to be sad or feel empty about. Right !! It sounds so much like Amitab's Dialogue na -  Mere pass MAA hai ... He He ...

Life and Emotions needs to carry on together. How much ever we try somethings cant be forgotten and sometimes are better unsaid or hidden in the corner of your heart.

This is something for you Priya after spending 15 yrs of friendship with you i never really met anyone with whom i can share the same time or a BOND that was so strong called Friends. Miss you .. Hope the Lord blesses you with loads of Love, Companion ship , Success & Smiles. I am SORRY about all the misunderstandings and fights that popped up between us. Good or Bad Friends are always there for each other. I am sorry as i wasn't around.


Love,
Nitz