Life & Love -- Alot to Learn from!!

Finally Am I here before the year ends.. I know haven't been around for a while. Yeah Yeah I know my fault and can give no reasons for that .

Life has changed but it didnt take a effort to change me. For sometimes i still walk down the same lane thinking if we could meet accidentally some point, some where in that corner of life. And my heart pops up with a thought -" Do you ever wish the same ? " The answer is not unknown to me but still i am standing here gazing at the stars n hoping you would say YES .

We expect so much and it never ends. I tell myself more than a thousand times that- " I am and should be Happy " I have a beautiful life but some were i cant lie to myself that there is an emptiness inside me. This Emptiness kills me every moment i think of you walking away from me. I cant question you WHY and cant be without asking as well.

You were a friends to me.. Someone who knew everything about me, I am more heart broken when i think even knowing me you would still decide to walk away.

The only thing changed in me in all these years is that even knowing the truth my heartbeat skips a skip when i hear you name and dont let anyone know. Not sure if there would be a day when you will realize the pain i am going thru inside. The waves of emotions that takes place within my heart breaking me down into pieces every time.

Will you ?

"Love has no name or any identity
its a mere feeling that brings out the best of you"

Sometime it makes me wonder why am i so cold,
Have the warmth in my heart but still so numb

I know it has been a long time since i took an effort to sit and pen down something running in my mind. I dont even remember the last post what was it about.. Funny !

After a long break from work spent a night with friends and yes i did have fun continuing that watched LOOTERA the early morning show. May be watching the Movie inspired me to write again, Nah its nothing to do with Pakhi Writing her stories but the overall the story left me with loads of thoughts within me.

Love ... Again i am stuck understanding what it is all about. There was a time when it used to be a big deal if you get a love letter written to you and those eye contacts when you cross each other. One touch of that special person leaves you behind with lots of sleepless nights and restless days finding ways to meet. Today's generation where its completely opposite.. No not that i am complaining about it but i feel that they are missing something in all this. Its always a special feeling of being loved or in love.

Right after the movie while surfing found a post asking the same questions that was running in my mind. My World – My Perception. So releaved that i am not the only one with such thoughts or questions in this world. Love, Pain, Desire, Lust, Obsession - What is it that we all are running behind or running away from? For all i see is that it is not the generation were you would hide yourself with a broken heart but move on in life and find someone worth loving, sharing life with. Where has the importance of the love letters hidden? The stupid excuses to meet and get to see a glance of him faded away?

I felt the love between Pakhi & Varun or between Amrita & Zulfi is such a beautiful if you can feel the love they might have had the pain that they would have shared. Why do we always give up and give it a name of destiny and live in pain the whole life. People say that you will always remember the moments spent when your in love till your last breath. I agree with them, You might have given up on it as destiny but somewhere in your heart  you would always look for that person and when you find them you have a want to relive those moments. Strange but love is strange isn't it, strange in the sense how much ever you try you will still want to go back. I dont know if its right to expect to be loved back but do you really think you should? I dont think so, I read in one of the Osho's books that - Just keep loving and dont expect to get back the same love then its not love at all. Everyone has a different point of view on this.

We can sit and argue on this complete life and still one will win it. Love is just Love, Its a Emotion that you can express and cant HOLD on to it. I know someone who is just in love and has never expected back anything in return .. no questions at all. But tell me something does that kinda love exist any more in today's world? Where you would wait for someone take all the pains and still wait for their return. Live life the fullest being in love .. find happiness in every small gesture? Smile and goosebumps when you suddenly see a message on your cellphones saying - Love You ? Close your eyes and you can still feel the touch, breathe of them. One side love to bahut dur ki baat hai ... kya dono hi pyar ko nibha patey hain?


Love,
Nitz