A thought that has been crawling inside me.. living every moment of life we make new relations, start to walk on new pathways.. new goals... new adventures. But have we realized with time the the charm and enthuse that we start with it begins to fade away & relationships here are no exceptions.
Relations can be summarized in various categories starting from genuine to intimate. Usually if its a Intimate relationships, Few cuddles with suprizes, etc can keep it going. but what about the relationship that is genuine for e.g between ur family? I belong a typical Rajasthani family where respect & prayer's is the first thing that is taught to the child. Me being the eldest i always longed for a bro who would be my best friend and person to take care of me. Strange that i feel longed for such a relationship were the world longs for intimate and other relations.
This is what made me think what an emotional fool i am, past few days i have felt a pinch inside me which i need to bring it out or it would eat me from inside, thinking how people change their priorities when they add new relations to their life. Here what it is that is running in me - I met someone while working for an MNC as days passed by... we started taking each other as close as a brother and sister would. Whatever we did or went through we would actually sit and talk on that ... laugh on things, it was like this all i wanted a sweet bro whom i thought would be my best friend and yet take care of me like a big B
Years passed and finally day came where he fell in love and started a new journey in his life. As always i wanted to see him settled and happy with this life.. but now as days passed we no more talk or even now sit and laugh on jokes that we used to crack before. Something i didnt expect it to happen, I am married too but i dont think i have ever done this to something who counted on me or even been close to me. Why do people change so soon and forget that they have other relations also which might be affecting.
Or is it that i am being stupid enough to think that i counted to a person who is just another colleague working at my office? I kept talking about this to my hubby and he said no more emotional relationships you are gonna have. I guess he is right - " NO MORE " Don't deserve to be hurt like this at least. I might even be over reacting but the difference i see now is way too much than i thought it would happen. Actually i think i am HURT of loosing someone so close to me.
Tear rolls down telling me stop thinking about it. Everyone has their own life and we are no special to them . the ugly reality.
Nitz
